User blog:Politoed89/OK, soapbox time.

Yesterday certainly was an eventful day. I'm sure everyone knows a bit about what happened, but you should know as much as I do. I'll do my best not to trash anyone, but I'll be naming some names. There are some other things this blog is for, but I'll get to that later.

So, after I sat in traffic for almost an hour and a half after seeing Tangled (Awesome movie. :D), I went into the IRC like I always do. So, pretty much right after I got in there, I knew something had happened with Ryan, due to some PM's as well as other hints around. So, I got invited to a channel. Apparently, it was some kind of intervention. I found out it was for Ryan, even though he wasn't there (Which kinda defeats the purpose of an intervention, but he might have been there earlier). I won't be too specific about why and who and how and all of those questions, and I'm sure many people will appreciate that, because there's a lot of backstory here that I don't think anyone is proud of. Now, while we in there, Ryan and some close friends of mine were giving some...conflicting information. So, being the idiot I am, I told Ryan everything they had said to me in confidence. He got mad and said some things. They got mad as well and said some things. And there I was, in the middle of this conflict. Then, tired of all of this, Musou left the room and quit. I snapped. I started yelling at Ryan in PM, then went into the main chatroom, yelled some more, then said that I hated everyone, something I really regret. I'm sorry about that. I was REALLY mad, and stressed. So, I went to the Wiki, wrote an angry blog and left in a huff. So, I came back a few hours later to check how things were going, and well...I got some really nice comments that made me feel good. Especially the one from DJ_Fan. I'm not trying to undervalue anyone else here, as all of your comments were really helpful and nice, too, but the fact that a relatively inactive user came over just to say goodbye and give me a kind word...that touched me. Now, here's where everything gets a little sappy and kinda dumb. I was listening to "A Little More Homework" from 13, and I realized that that song was right. Going through troubles, problems, and everything in between is just part of life. Honestly, I think it was selfish of me to quit, after thinking about it. I shouldn't make anyone have to miss me or abandon being helpful on the Wiki because I've got some problems with users. Sure, my relationship with certain user(s) is in tatters, but is it really worth abandoning something I like a lot?

The second thing I'd like to do is apologize. I'm sorry to TDF and WM, for snapping at you. You weren't doing anything wrong. I just thought that you belittling a situation which was really stressing me out. I'm sorry to anyone I upset by leaving. And, I'm sorry for pulling that big of a rampage and then not actually leaving. :P That's all I think I need to apologize for. I defend some of my actions.

I can't think of anything else to say at this point. I may still take a break from the Wiki for a bit, or not edit as actively. I don't know. I certainly don't know about the IRC- I may go in right now, but I'm not sure how long it'll be after that.

Well, thanks to everyone who made me feel better when I was angry/down.

(Also, this is "A Little More Homework".)