User blog:Breakingmikey/A new beginning

Haven't done this in a long time, but it's worth a shot.

Hey guys, it's me, Mike aka 'Breakingmikey'. I was banned a couple of years ago for basically being a total jerk to pretty much everyone because I was demoted from my admin status. I should of left but because of having no social life then, I pretty much forced myself to stay on here and build up more anger. And that was possibly the worst decision ever and it caused me to lose friends, tried to make enemies, tried to break friendships, made me paranoid, eventually blackmailed people, become more angry and paranoid and got myself banned. And the ban was 100% deserved in every way. And now, I regret everything I've done to everyone I've hurt and I'm sorry for everything.

And I'm not going to lie, I was angry at myself the most, and I don't want to live in the past with everyone and I want to start a new on this wiki. So, I'm going to get some stuff off my chest that built more anger: I feel that I'm being hard on myself and I should, but that's something I've gotten off my chest before and here is some things I'm going to say next that are fact: I'm Mike, I'm 19, going to school full time for Criminal Justice and minoring in Psychology. Kinda want to do every major in the book because that's how I roll. I enjoy Total Drama a lot, I'm gay and take that to the grave (was in great denial about that as well), and I'm a total wimp that does not know how to make friends. That's me and actually being open with myself.
 * I was not born in Australia, I'm a 100% American born kid. I lied about that because there was some people here a couple of years ago that were really cool and wanted to be friends with so I lied, said I was from there and became friends (I guess).
 * The stories I said about me and my families relationship were all false, I said them so people feel pity for me. Actually, I have a good relationship with my parents and brother. Why I lied about that... I don't know.
 * Lied about my name too, it's not "Mikey," it's "Michael". Same thing, but I hate my name.
 * Pretty much, I lied about 99.9% of my life, except for some facts.
 * And I know I've been told not to feel bad about this, but whenever someone mentions another user's name (that most know of), I feel bad because I felt that it's my fault she left the wiki a couple years ago in the first place.

I can honestly thank Mr. E (from the TDIFF wiki) for coming about about himself, which influenced me to come clean about a lot of stuff I've made up about myself. BB, Toad and Duke and the rest of the TDIFF wiki members for being good friends to me in the past year, and Ryan for talking to when I felt down. And to the TDWiki staff for banning me a couple of years ago, it's a lesson learn and it actually opened my eyes in my faults and it made me a better person than I am today. I actually have good IRL friends, a guy that I've been talking to about six months and more mature than I was before.

I want to start a new beginning on the wiki (I know some of you aren't happy to see me back) and coming clean about myself. Mikey then was a horrible person, but Mike now is a better person who learned a lot. I hope some of you can accept my apology and I understand if you don't, but I'm trying a fresh new start.  ★   Mikey    ★    is ready for All Stars! 03:28, September 15, 2013 (UTC)