Thread:Webkinz Mania/@comment-26184706-20160811022553

WM, if you don't mind, allow me to say my final piece, and I mean it. The only reason I'm doing any of this is because I want to end this drama once and for all. I know my messages have been mixed, but just disregard all past encounters and think about what I am saying now.

I'm on here to escape from my life, and it was never easy. That is mostly due to my parents divorcing, and life was horrible in that time. When it started out, I wanted to do what I could to end it, ironically I did exactly what I did now back then. It didn't do anything but get me in trouble then, 6-7 years later and I realize now all I'm doing is a repeat of the past; it didn't help them and it's not helping now. And this isn't for sympathy, I'm above that, and I would never live with myself if I played people for sympathy. I've had a horrible teenage life, one that I still cry about to this day. Because of what's happened, I had to transfer schools, I've been scared to stand up for myself, I couldn't speak with my old friends out of personal idiocy, I had to sever contact with my father and younger sister out of spite for their behavior towards my mother, and I'm afraid I'll never get over it. On here, on wikia, I'm able to escape all that and be the person who I was, who I am trying to be again. But I'm screwing it all up all over again, I want to stand up for my friends, but I can't because no matter what I do, I'm just an effing screw up. I don't want people to hate me, I'm afraid of doing the wrong thing so people would hate me, I just want this to end.

I know this was long, and probably unnecessary, but it was something I just wanted to get off my chest. I'm not a bad person, I don't like playing people, I don't like trying to be get sympathy, I just want to be honest and truthful. But I understand, you'll never forgive me, no one will probably forgive me for my stupid actions. It's likely I'm better off leaving and no one would care, they would just remember a guy who was kinda alright, but always had his judgement in the wrong place, and they'd be right. But I don't want to leave, simply leaving will never solve anything. I know you don't care, but all I ask is that we put this behind, put everything behind and go back to the calm before the previous month, like when we all had fun at that anniversary. I know you're not a bad person, you're just doing your job, and I respect that. At least say you acknowledge what I say now, if not for the wiki then at least for my own peace of mind. 