Thread:Nobody else wanted this username/@comment-460966-20170101053449/@comment-27684166-20170105042649

The thing is. I have done this before. I have admited it before. But because of my own flaws, I kept doing the same stupid mistakes over and over again. And after enough times, my apologies became worthless.

The bigger problem is that I angered most of the 'big name' people around here. I wont list names, but they know who they are. I made them angry to the point where, while I had not broken any rules, I was such a mean person, that no one wanted me around and all my attempts at any conversation were met with shunning or insults. So I left. And I doubt they have gotten any less angry at me since. Because of my poor rep in general, poor rep with most regulars, and mark of infamy, I, for awhile, did not really see any reason to come back, I was greatly disliked...but for some reason, I just keep doing so. I was in chat for 5 seconds 2 weeks ago to say Happy Holidays, I occasionally browse recent blog posts, I look at articles, etc. I dont know why, but I just keep coming back as if I magicly expect all my mistakes to have suddenly never happend and turn everything back to the way it was. Back when the Chat was not a ghost town, back when me and he-whom-shall-not-be-nammed were besties, back when no one hated me. Maybe it's just stupid Nostalgia that keeps making me come back, but I just do.